I'm going through the motions

I'm going through the motions

It's over but still hopeful that what I know to be true will just go away

However, it won't cause there is no more us

Now, there may be an occasional phuk for a few months after this but that's it

I'm going through the motions

I reached out, repeatedly those final attempts to make things right

But, that's a no go *shrug* I guess I can't win 'em all

I hate cliche's but "It is what it is"

I wish it wasn't

I'm tired but this one serves me right

I needed a few lessons and God was sure in teaching me them

Don't ignore your gut

Stay away from other people's property

Don't make someone a priority when you're just an option

Stay true to who you are; if you have to change drastically just to appease there's a problem.

Lesson's learned Boss; it won't happen again, promise you that

Don't ignore your gut

Stay away from other people's property

Don't make someone a priority when you're just an option

Stay true to who you are; if you have to change drastically just to appease there's a problem.

I'm going through the motions

I'd wish they'd leave me alone

Never again, it's a wrap!

We done, in more ways than one.

I'm going through the motions, but although I loved him-I know I love me, even more.

I can't keep giving my all for a 'lil bit nothing.

Being the optimist that I am, I know better relationships are to come.

Patience! Grass hopper, be patient.

Ehhhh! I'm just going through the motions...

This too shall pass

Bx 176

I guess

I guess you think I'm gonna write about how much I hate you?
I don't
I can't nor would I want to
I grew up with you-your episodes, some new and some old
I guess I could be honest; love hurts at least within recent months with you
I don't even dislike you since you're gone and its not because I don't care
I do, I did and always will
I can't nor would I want not to
I love you and I loved you dearly
I guess It would've been easier to talk then listen and listen then talk
I think
I wish things were different and our love for one another could co-exist happily ever after
I dreamed it would but I'm awake now
I no longer know what to do with you, for you or even about you
I guess if its meant to be it will be
I remember you said "we're gonna break up, in fact twice! Then realize we can't live without each other..."
I use to quote the phrase "third times the charm!" however
I hope you're right cuz right now things feel so final.

I guess only time will tell


Bx 176
01.31.10

There was a time

There was a time where I was your every and anything
Do you remember when you use to send me love songs so sweet
I do, I miss them dearly.

There was a time where I was first in line, now I don't even know which line I'm in?
Do you remember when we'd be in the same room and nothing else existed but US?
I do and I miss that too.
There was a time where I woke up thinking about you...
Do you still think about me?
I still do.

There was a time where I could feel you near me without you even calling
Do you remember how much I cooed over you?
I still do but from a distance

There was a time where I believed my heart would stop with out you but I learned it'll beat no matter what(just science!)
Do you remember my love because it hasn't forgotten you
I still love you and I miss you.

If ever there was any time it would always be just for me and you
Do you remember?
I do.

Bx176
01.18.10

Lessons from a Mistress

Lessons from a Mistress

Be that Bitch!
Don't whine, scream/holler just talk.
Understand the difference between making love and fucking and know when to do which.
Always keep food available.
Suck the dick
Keep a secret
Play a 'lil game

Always keep 'em guessing.

Lessons from a Mistress

Love without fear means being unconditional but far from stupidity.
Don't beat on 'em especially when he's down; pick 'em up, dust 'em off "we'll try again next time."

Play your position
Let him be a man

Lessons from a Mistress
Sex him good, sex him right and if he can go all night-have no boundaries and make sure you create safety words.
Keep it tight (kegels, anyone?)
Keep that body right, like he like it.

Be a woman, in every sense and fiber of your being just be a lady.

Let him go.
Trust he know how to find his way home.
Lessons from a Mistress

What you won't do, somebody else will.

I'm glad I grew up in the hood

I'm glad I grew up in the hood!

I had a trying but comical morning today. My condo association changed the door to my building and we get new keys, naturally I remove the old one and place it on my counter never to be thought of again (or so I thought) well, its 6am time to get up for work and its Saturday so I have to put the trash out, walk pup pup, etc. I'm dressed ready for work ahead of schedule so, I decide to take the trash and walk pup pup at the same time we go downstairs out the back (Door Slams) it seemed louder than normal but o had my keys thought nothing of it. However, its pouring so we have to toss trash and pup pup must so his business ASAP in fact immediately with a capital 'E' right? Right! We head back to the door and I take out my keys and it hits me the Front and Back door share the same key. Among the few choice words I could have blurted, I decide to be civil about this (in the cold rain and pup pup who's a mere 5lbs) I knock to get some attention, nothing so I walk around tap firmly on some windows, I get nothing! By this point were drenched, pup pup is not happy and I'm frustrated! I look at the parking lot and it dawns on me there's a gate the cars leave and go from, yay! So we hurry down the lot up the hill to the gate to get out (but key pad is outside far from arms reach) !#*? So, I do what any kid from the South Bronx would ... Climb the gate! I put pup pup leash on a spike to keep him from running. In my business gear (true story) hop up do a lil balance act up top (Go Wii Fit plus) and lower myself down and slide pup pup who's resisting out of fear through the bar and we're out! still raining and freezing but heading back to our warm comfy abode the proper way I let pup pup in who immediately praises his bed and I with super speed Re attach that old front door key before even breathing. Lesson of the day remembering where you came from will always take you to where you need to go.

Bx 176
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DOOMSDAY

Doomsday
A yo, PhatGyrl c’mere “are you ticklish?”
Ha Ha Ha!!!
Phuk U, pay me!
Didn’t I ask you, not to lie to me? I did, I know I did but you still chose to lie.
Why?
Am I a Phuken joke?
Oh, c’mon now “Why so serious?”
Isn’t this what you wanted, the RAW and REAL me?
So, why does it feel like “Doomsday?”
D, damn, he got me!
O, oh shyt he did it, again-Phuk!!
O, oh hell no, I saw that one coming.
M, man! I can do bad by myself.
S, still in love…
D, does he even still care?
A, acting right is for actors – I need him to want to be right.
Y, you ever think: Damn, He got me-shyt, I saw that one coming. Phuk Man, I’m still in love and wondering does he even still care or is he acting right, so I don’t have to worry about him being right?

Bx176
09.05.09
9:30pm

Notable mention c/o CustomCanvasArt

http://customcanvasart.blogspot.com/2009/09/art-poetry-funeral-day.html