A short story on Park Place...

Damn! That was good.
I was nervous at first.
Unsure.
As we got into it, I told myself I’ll just fake it.
He won’t notice.
Right!
We stop, pull up on the side of the road
What – What happened?
Take ‘em off!
What?!
Yo’ panties, take ‘em off
Oooh, I’m excited. Damn!
Aight, papi. They off, they off.
Hand up thigh, oooh its hot in here.
Before I could even think to help him out by opening up
I was already there
I can’t think straight
Breath girl, B-R-E-A-T-H!
Everything STOPS.
Chest heaving, deep breaths IN/OUT
He stopped.
Before I could look to see what happened.
His hand was stroking my hair
He whispers: I wanna watch
Huh?
Watch, what?
Go ahead, lemme see.
Pretend that’s my toungue
Hmm, I’ma fake this one – he won’t be able to tell and besides I been talking shit, so I can’t look like a punk.
Act like, I like this.
You like my toungue there?
Yea!
To myself, my hand is warm here.
What was that sound, sounds like a toungue liking
You like that
Hmm?
What does it feel like?
Warm. He’s got to be kidding
There goes that toungue sound again, but that’s my hand right?
Yea, its my hand.
Seat back- one leg up on the dash board the other follows.
I hear him faintly: You like to get your clit sucked
There goes that toungue noise again
But that’s my hand, but it feels so good
I like sucking on clits
There’s that sound..
God, its hot in here-Whew!
You like that? (That sound)
Yes.
You like it from the back? Yea, you look like you like to be bent over.
Heat rushing through my body.
Can I bend you over?
Yea.
Stroking my hair.
He’s talking, but I can’t hear him.
I’m somewhere else, in my own zone.
Its cold out, but I’m hot as fuck.
It must be getting good, I can hear your juices-I can smell you, and you taste good.
Whew, yes!
I didn’t think my clit could throb like that.
So, you think you gonna write about this?
What?
I’m up, I’m in my room but I was just…
Oh, I’m tripping.
I reach over to the other side for the remote to turn on the morning news.
I find my panties, instead.

12-21-04
BX 176

What I Need

What I need

I need more time.

I need to be in my mans arms; where it's safe and warm.

I need to feel the weight of your body against mine.

I need there not to ever lapse time where I forget the sensation of your lips at the nape of my neck.

I need to be loved to the fullest extent, continuously.

I need there to never ever be any sexual frustration - Mami, always said whatever you don't do, somebody else will. So, I make sure that I DO it all for you.

I need to know that its okay for me to creatively express my thoughts without sounding alarms.

I need to be cared for deeply and ernestly with no regard as to who's watching.

I need to love and be loved, I'm ready for love and all of its flaws.

All I WANT is YOU

What I NEED is YOU

Bx176
05.10.09
1:21pm

In my Lifetime

In my lifetime
I’ve seen quite a bit
In my lifetime
I’ve experienced doubt
In my lifetime
I’ve been dealt an abundance of pain
In my lifetime
I’ve seen some atrocities
In my lifetime
I’ve experienced TRUE love and some passionate hate
In my lifetime
I’ve been around some bullshyt
In my lifetime
I’m just not sure if I’ll make it through.

Bx176
05.01.09
3:03pm