Thursday, April 30, 2009

I keep asking myself

I keep asking myself, Why or how could I let this be?
I fell in love, a deep love almost like an oasis of love not blissful ignorant love but strong; deeply connected love.
I keep asking myself, how or why did I let this be?
No straight answer from him or me, I'm in a safe zone.
We ran across the highway of love so rapidly, we never saw, I never saw it coming.
It was deep; our love-there's no explanation for it-it's just who we are simple yet complex.
The good is just enough and the badder the better!

Still, I keep asking myself how or why did I let this be?
Faithfully & Eternally, I will always love him-but he's not mine for the taking but when our bodies combine - it's chaotic passion and if you've never had it, go on and try it-it'll soothe all woes.
There's balance:
Love-Hate
Hot-Cold
Love-Lust
Trust-Deceit

There's no rhyme or reason-it's raw feeling; TRUE emotion.
I keep asking myself, how or why could I let this be?
I thought closely, without me there is no him.

Bx 176

Not Your Average

I'm not an average bitch, I'm a quality bitch!
Fuck that, I'm a Limited Edition and fuck you very much with your bitch assness!!!

Please don't come this way, I'm on my way to places that you'll never see.
Get on with your foolish banter, I don't care to understand.

I'm not an average bitch, I'm a quality bitch as rare as the stones int he crown of the Pharoah's.
Get on with the victomology, I'm tired of your "I'm Sorry!"
You're such a fucking lame.
You got me only to take a crack at me, I'm not a part-time woman.
I'm a complete woman in search of her complete man, so tell me have you seen him?

I'm not an average bitch, I'm a quality bitch!
I'm not in need of material possessions because I understand my worth and am capable of
complementing your swag.
I do more than bring something to the table, I light that motherfucker on fire!

And, one day you'll realize how wonderful we could've been.
I'm so sorry, I know-it sucks to be you.

Bx 176
04.18.09
11:09pm

I'm in Love

I'm in love, so in love or at least I thought I was...
I don't know what happened to me/us?
But, now I'm here alone and torn between two loves
I love him, I love him but he never loved me back or at least not how I wanted him to.
I'm so in love or at least I use to be.
I'm not sure what happened to or it went wrong but I'm here alone, torn love.
I love him
I loved him, but he wasn't ready and now he says "I'm ready!"
I love you.
I've waiting to hear him say that of his own accord.

He beams so brightly when he sees me.
He openly says I miss you, I really do.
I had so much fun with him but he hurt me.
I can't put myself out here, again not to him.
I love him.
I use to love him.
So, why do I still miss him?

Bx176
1:46am

Monday, April 20, 2009

What WE Do

What we do, How we do be on that next shyt!
That kind you dream of sexin'
Passionate
Lustful
So sinful, you'd think we consulted with the Devil.

What we do, how we do be on that next shyt!
That kind you fin for sexin'!
Just the thought of it gives you shivers

The kind that when you're done, all you can muster is "I'm good"

What we do, how we do be on that next shyt!
That you can come get it anytime, anywhere you want it Daddy sexin'!
The nastier the better...

What we do, how we do be on that next shyt!
That's his shyt, Pussy Pumper extrodinaire-Special Delivery!!

What we do, how we do be on that next shyt!
I'm so in love with 'em

Shyt!

Bx176
02.09.09
9:29
I'm in distress, needs have not been met!
S.O.S. MuthaPhuka

Mz.Stress in distress...if you can't keep up with her, do you really need to be with her?
Mz.Stress in distress, who just happens to be depressed. Phuck!
A lone star state of affairs.

Damn, it's phucked up when a bitch could love so good but still be alone.
Mz.Stress in distress!
S.O.S. MuthaPhuka, ova' here!

I'm starting to analyze...
Am I really worth the time or is it just not my time at all?
Ha ha!

Take a deep breath ::BREATH::
Mz.Stress in distress, is worth the stress?
Yes!

His love is better than all the rest.

Bx 176
01.30.09
5:44pm

Sunday, April 19, 2009

I almost told him about you

I almost told him about you, today
How you make me smile so wildly, I have to remind myself to keep my composure.

I almost told him about you, today
How you make me feel like a woman, a sexy one at that

I almost told him about you, today
How you make my body yearn for your touch, day in and day out

I almost told him about you, last night
How you love to show me off, and appreciate my appearance during our outings

I almost told him about you, last night
When he asked me, have you cheated on me?
I wanted to say: Yes, I did but what I did say: No. I'd much rather leave than deal with those issues.

I almost told him about you, again.I feel like I'm losing control, emotionally torn and mentally distraught
Loyalty holds me, but the thought of LOVE uncontrolled puts fear in me.

But still, I almost told him about you.

Bx 176
04.12.05

Perception (Young & Restless)

I'm young but I'm not stupid; I understand the difference between right and wrong.
I know good and I know BAD, been there done that!

Perception is a damn good seductress; she can convince a blind man that he can see. It's true, I've seen her in action. I'm young but I'm not stupid; I understand the smart, the overly smart, the too smart and those that are dumb as a brick. I understand and battle with moral and immoral actions, daily.

Perception is a damn good seductress; she can make light in the darkIt's true, this chick is bad!
I'm young but I'm not stupid; I understand everything isn't for everybody especially my everything.I know honest and dishonest, I hear from them daily.

Perception is a damn good seductress; she makes the miniscule seem larger than life when it shouldn't be. It's true, I'm sure you've been through it I'm young but I'm not stupid; I understand decency, self respect and overall good character.I know fact from fictionPerception is a damn good seductress; she makes everything surrealIt's true.

I'm young, but I'm not stupid and I make sure that I sieze the day-to thy own self be true!

BX 176
10.19.08
7:55pm

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Why Ask?

Why Ask?

I don't understand, why ask to bemy everything forever and a day-then slowly take it away?

Why? What's the point, exactly?

Why ask me to be with you ride or die, then inch away like a coward under stress?

I don't understand.

Why? What would incite you to romance and invest in the mental connection that we had and then abrubtly, stop!

Why ask for clarification "are we a couple, BF/GF, etc.?" You responded "Yes" a number of times then we done, cause you say we done; now granted, you never said but your actions do daily.

Why ask? What's the purpose? Was it in all actuality just a creep?

Maybe, but I'd hate to think that was it-especially because of the way you look at me when you say- you love me.

Maybe, as I'm thinking on it - you did just completed your quest. Afterall, you did say - you just wanted to see how was, as a person.


I hope it's what you expected, but still I don't understand, why you asked.

Bx176
04.05.09 2:36am


Friday, April 3, 2009

You got this thing with me You love me - You can't love me
You want me - You don't want me but you need me
You got this thing with me You'll love me like you adore me but then it turns around and I wonder, does he hate me?
You got time and make time then *poof* it's gone!
You got this thing with me I love you, I gotta love you - I adore you but you're bruising me without ever laying a hand on me.
You got this thing with me You provide, protect and pamper when you can all because you love me
You want me
You need me
I hear you baby, keep talking

You got this thing with me
It's killing me!

Bx176 02.06.09 7:06pm

I believe in love first

I believe in love, first
How you got ‘em is how you lose ‘em?
Old saying…I don’t believe in
I believe in love first
REAL LOVE
No bullshyt infatuation
I can see you broke down to your socks and still ride or die
I believe in love first
How you got ‘em is how you lost ‘em?
Not if you have their heart!
REAL Love endures all things
I believe in love first and I swear by his
It’s worth every moment, kiss, touch and stare
REAL LOVE knows no bounds and can’t be contested
How you got ‘em is how you lose ‘em?
Nah!
I believe in love first
Novelty is temporary
Lust soon fades
Infatuation quickly dies and sometimes you have to remember how you got ‘em is how you keep ‘em!
I believe in love first

BX176
1.26-28.09, 10:49pm