I'm going through the motions

I'm going through the motions

It's over but still hopeful that what I know to be true will just go away

However, it won't cause there is no more us

Now, there may be an occasional phuk for a few months after this but that's it

I'm going through the motions

I reached out, repeatedly those final attempts to make things right

But, that's a no go *shrug* I guess I can't win 'em all

I hate cliche's but "It is what it is"

I wish it wasn't

I'm tired but this one serves me right

I needed a few lessons and God was sure in teaching me them

Don't ignore your gut

Stay away from other people's property

Don't make someone a priority when you're just an option

Stay true to who you are; if you have to change drastically just to appease there's a problem.

Lesson's learned Boss; it won't happen again, promise you that

Don't ignore your gut

Stay away from other people's property

Don't make someone a priority when you're just an option

Stay true to who you are; if you have to change drastically just to appease there's a problem.

I'm going through the motions

I'd wish they'd leave me alone

Never again, it's a wrap!

We done, in more ways than one.

I'm going through the motions, but although I loved him-I know I love me, even more.

I can't keep giving my all for a 'lil bit nothing.

Being the optimist that I am, I know better relationships are to come.

Patience! Grass hopper, be patient.

Ehhhh! I'm just going through the motions...

This too shall pass

Bx 176

I guess

I guess you think I'm gonna write about how much I hate you?
I don't
I can't nor would I want to
I grew up with you-your episodes, some new and some old
I guess I could be honest; love hurts at least within recent months with you
I don't even dislike you since you're gone and its not because I don't care
I do, I did and always will
I can't nor would I want not to
I love you and I loved you dearly
I guess It would've been easier to talk then listen and listen then talk
I think
I wish things were different and our love for one another could co-exist happily ever after
I dreamed it would but I'm awake now
I no longer know what to do with you, for you or even about you
I guess if its meant to be it will be
I remember you said "we're gonna break up, in fact twice! Then realize we can't live without each other..."
I use to quote the phrase "third times the charm!" however
I hope you're right cuz right now things feel so final.

I guess only time will tell


Bx 176
01.31.10

There was a time

There was a time where I was your every and anything
Do you remember when you use to send me love songs so sweet
I do, I miss them dearly.

There was a time where I was first in line, now I don't even know which line I'm in?
Do you remember when we'd be in the same room and nothing else existed but US?
I do and I miss that too.
There was a time where I woke up thinking about you...
Do you still think about me?
I still do.

There was a time where I could feel you near me without you even calling
Do you remember how much I cooed over you?
I still do but from a distance

There was a time where I believed my heart would stop with out you but I learned it'll beat no matter what(just science!)
Do you remember my love because it hasn't forgotten you
I still love you and I miss you.

If ever there was any time it would always be just for me and you
Do you remember?
I do.

Bx176
01.18.10