Lessons from a Mistress
Be that Bitch!
Don't whine, scream/holler just talk.
Understand the difference between making love and fucking and know when to do which.
Always keep food available.
Suck the dick
Keep a secret
Play a 'lil game
Always keep 'em guessing.
Lessons from a Mistress
Love without fear means being unconditional but far from stupidity.
Don't beat on 'em especially when he's down; pick 'em up, dust 'em off "we'll try again next time."
Play your position
Let him be a man
Lessons from a Mistress
Sex him good, sex him right and if he can go all night-have no boundaries and make sure you create safety words.
Keep it tight (kegels, anyone?)
Keep that body right, like he like it.
Be a woman, in every sense and fiber of your being just be a lady.
Let him go.
Trust he know how to find his way home.
Lessons from a Mistress
What you won't do, somebody else will.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Saturday, December 5, 2009
I'm glad I grew up in the hood
I'm glad I grew up in the hood!
I had a trying but comical morning today. My condo association changed the door to my building and we get new keys, naturally I remove the old one and place it on my counter never to be thought of again (or so I thought) well, its 6am time to get up for work and its Saturday so I have to put the trash out, walk pup pup, etc. I'm dressed ready for work ahead of schedule so, I decide to take the trash and walk pup pup at the same time we go downstairs out the back (Door Slams) it seemed louder than normal but o had my keys thought nothing of it. However, its pouring so we have to toss trash and pup pup must so his business ASAP in fact immediately with a capital 'E' right? Right! We head back to the door and I take out my keys and it hits me the Front and Back door share the same key. Among the few choice words I could have blurted, I decide to be civil about this (in the cold rain and pup pup who's a mere 5lbs) I knock to get some attention, nothing so I walk around tap firmly on some windows, I get nothing! By this point were drenched, pup pup is not happy and I'm frustrated! I look at the parking lot and it dawns on me there's a gate the cars leave and go from, yay! So we hurry down the lot up the hill to the gate to get out (but key pad is outside far from arms reach) !#*? So, I do what any kid from the South Bronx would ... Climb the gate! I put pup pup leash on a spike to keep him from running. In my business gear (true story) hop up do a lil balance act up top (Go Wii Fit plus) and lower myself down and slide pup pup who's resisting out of fear through the bar and we're out! still raining and freezing but heading back to our warm comfy abode the proper way I let pup pup in who immediately praises his bed and I with super speed Re attach that old front door key before even breathing. Lesson of the day remembering where you came from will always take you to where you need to go.
Bx 176
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I had a trying but comical morning today. My condo association changed the door to my building and we get new keys, naturally I remove the old one and place it on my counter never to be thought of again (or so I thought) well, its 6am time to get up for work and its Saturday so I have to put the trash out, walk pup pup, etc. I'm dressed ready for work ahead of schedule so, I decide to take the trash and walk pup pup at the same time we go downstairs out the back (Door Slams) it seemed louder than normal but o had my keys thought nothing of it. However, its pouring so we have to toss trash and pup pup must so his business ASAP in fact immediately with a capital 'E' right? Right! We head back to the door and I take out my keys and it hits me the Front and Back door share the same key. Among the few choice words I could have blurted, I decide to be civil about this (in the cold rain and pup pup who's a mere 5lbs) I knock to get some attention, nothing so I walk around tap firmly on some windows, I get nothing! By this point were drenched, pup pup is not happy and I'm frustrated! I look at the parking lot and it dawns on me there's a gate the cars leave and go from, yay! So we hurry down the lot up the hill to the gate to get out (but key pad is outside far from arms reach) !#*? So, I do what any kid from the South Bronx would ... Climb the gate! I put pup pup leash on a spike to keep him from running. In my business gear (true story) hop up do a lil balance act up top (Go Wii Fit plus) and lower myself down and slide pup pup who's resisting out of fear through the bar and we're out! still raining and freezing but heading back to our warm comfy abode the proper way I let pup pup in who immediately praises his bed and I with super speed Re attach that old front door key before even breathing. Lesson of the day remembering where you came from will always take you to where you need to go.
Bx 176
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Monday, September 7, 2009
DOOMSDAY
Doomsday
A yo, PhatGyrl c’mere “are you ticklish?”
Ha Ha Ha!!!
Phuk U, pay me!
Didn’t I ask you, not to lie to me? I did, I know I did but you still chose to lie.
Why?
Am I a Phuken joke?
Oh, c’mon now “Why so serious?”
Isn’t this what you wanted, the RAW and REAL me?
So, why does it feel like “Doomsday?”
D, damn, he got me!
O, oh shyt he did it, again-Phuk!!
O, oh hell no, I saw that one coming.
M, man! I can do bad by myself.
S, still in love…
D, does he even still care?
A, acting right is for actors – I need him to want to be right.
Y, you ever think: Damn, He got me-shyt, I saw that one coming. Phuk Man, I’m still in love and wondering does he even still care or is he acting right, so I don’t have to worry about him being right?
Bx176
09.05.09
9:30pm
A yo, PhatGyrl c’mere “are you ticklish?”
Ha Ha Ha!!!
Phuk U, pay me!
Didn’t I ask you, not to lie to me? I did, I know I did but you still chose to lie.
Why?
Am I a Phuken joke?
Oh, c’mon now “Why so serious?”
Isn’t this what you wanted, the RAW and REAL me?
So, why does it feel like “Doomsday?”
D, damn, he got me!
O, oh shyt he did it, again-Phuk!!
O, oh hell no, I saw that one coming.
M, man! I can do bad by myself.
S, still in love…
D, does he even still care?
A, acting right is for actors – I need him to want to be right.
Y, you ever think: Damn, He got me-shyt, I saw that one coming. Phuk Man, I’m still in love and wondering does he even still care or is he acting right, so I don’t have to worry about him being right?
Bx176
09.05.09
9:30pm
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
I'm Tired
I'm tired!
Tired of all the bullshyt and excuses that you bring.
Tired of all the drama and your circles of gloom.
Wish to God I had listened and just said: No.
Too tired to argue yet too strong to be victimized.
Fuk U and Fuk NO we can't harmonize - I'm tired of your games and the lies.
I know my worth and although it's painfully true I wished you'd seen it too.
Tired of all the bullshyt and excuses that you bring.
Tried of all the drama and the show you perform in.
One man band!
Ready, Aim - BANG!!!
I know my worth and even though I love you - I love me, even more.
I'm out!
Bx176
Tired of all the bullshyt and excuses that you bring.
Tired of all the drama and your circles of gloom.
Wish to God I had listened and just said: No.
Too tired to argue yet too strong to be victimized.
Fuk U and Fuk NO we can't harmonize - I'm tired of your games and the lies.
I know my worth and although it's painfully true I wished you'd seen it too.
Tired of all the bullshyt and excuses that you bring.
Tried of all the drama and the show you perform in.
One man band!
Ready, Aim - BANG!!!
I know my worth and even though I love you - I love me, even more.
I'm out!
Bx176
Sunday, August 23, 2009
What I need
I need more time.
I need to be in my mans arms; where it's safe and warm.
I need to feel the weight of your body against mine.
I need there not to ever lapse time where I forget the sensation of your lips at the nape of my neck.
I need to be loved to the fullest extent, continuously.
I need there to never ever be any sexual frustration - Mami, always said whatever you don't do, somebody else will. So, I make sure that I DO it all for you.
I need to know that its okay for me to creatively express my thoughts without sounding alarms.
I need to be cared for deeply and earnestly with no regard as to who's watching.
I need to love and be loved, I'm ready for love and all of its flaws.
All I WANT is YOU
What I NEED is YOU
Bx176
05.10.09
1:21pm
I need to be in my mans arms; where it's safe and warm.
I need to feel the weight of your body against mine.
I need there not to ever lapse time where I forget the sensation of your lips at the nape of my neck.
I need to be loved to the fullest extent, continuously.
I need there to never ever be any sexual frustration - Mami, always said whatever you don't do, somebody else will. So, I make sure that I DO it all for you.
I need to know that its okay for me to creatively express my thoughts without sounding alarms.
I need to be cared for deeply and earnestly with no regard as to who's watching.
I need to love and be loved, I'm ready for love and all of its flaws.
All I WANT is YOU
What I NEED is YOU
Bx176
05.10.09
1:21pm
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Phuk Rite - COOK rite
Phuk Rite - COOK rite
Mami made it clear "what you won't do, somebody else will"It's true; but all men don't derserve that Phuk Rite - COOK rite mentality.
A seldom few do, I've met 2 - 1 didn't know what to do and the other barely had the time but no matter, I do what I can and trust that I don't just bring something to the table - I set that MothaPhuker on FIRE!!
I do what I can and trust that with the right partner we can take on the world. I have class, education, and talents are plenty but this is about primal instinct - there's no logic required. No feminist views, chauvenistic ways just that natural connection between a man and a woman.
It's called "Phuk Rite - COOK rite"
It's in my blood to love so deep that the left side of your brain starts to work. It's who I am and how I want to be a good woman, person, true friend and esteemed lover. It's how I treat 'em and expect to be treated. Delicate like a flower, sweet, free-flowing like water, FRESH; no aftertaste! That's me.
Phuk Rite - COOK rite
That's the mentality I keep because when I'm with you-I'm with you; mind, body, spirit. I belong to you and although that sounds real good, one must remember that my everything ain't for everybody. Open me up; it's gonna take some time to adjust - like I said my everything ain't been for everybody. However, I'm willing and open to trying "new things."
Phuk Rite - COOK rite
It's nothing wrong with submitting and taking care of your man, so long as he's protecting and providing then we won't have a problem, but as soon as our love song skips a beat.
It's time to call this meeting to order, cause I Phuk Rite-COOK rite.
Bx 176
06.20.09
5:14pm
Mami made it clear "what you won't do, somebody else will"It's true; but all men don't derserve that Phuk Rite - COOK rite mentality.
A seldom few do, I've met 2 - 1 didn't know what to do and the other barely had the time but no matter, I do what I can and trust that I don't just bring something to the table - I set that MothaPhuker on FIRE!!
I do what I can and trust that with the right partner we can take on the world. I have class, education, and talents are plenty but this is about primal instinct - there's no logic required. No feminist views, chauvenistic ways just that natural connection between a man and a woman.
It's called "Phuk Rite - COOK rite"
It's in my blood to love so deep that the left side of your brain starts to work. It's who I am and how I want to be a good woman, person, true friend and esteemed lover. It's how I treat 'em and expect to be treated. Delicate like a flower, sweet, free-flowing like water, FRESH; no aftertaste! That's me.
Phuk Rite - COOK rite
That's the mentality I keep because when I'm with you-I'm with you; mind, body, spirit. I belong to you and although that sounds real good, one must remember that my everything ain't for everybody. Open me up; it's gonna take some time to adjust - like I said my everything ain't been for everybody. However, I'm willing and open to trying "new things."
Phuk Rite - COOK rite
It's nothing wrong with submitting and taking care of your man, so long as he's protecting and providing then we won't have a problem, but as soon as our love song skips a beat.
It's time to call this meeting to order, cause I Phuk Rite-COOK rite.
Bx 176
06.20.09
5:14pm
It won't be me
It won't be me.
No, sir!
Negative.
She was the prettiest thing walking, when they met - She was young & supple.
P.Y.T. = Pretty Young Thang! Yes, that was her.
He was an experienced man, had money, charm, established and he knew how to take care of a woman.
No, sir! Negative, it won't be me.
He sure did, so much so he felt the need for 2-3, even though he was married.
There she was; she was free as a bird but powerful like a stallion. She was the equivalent of a Grown 'lil girl, if ever there was such.
No, sir! Negative, it won't be me.
She fell in love, deeply, passionately in love.
She loved him, he adored her but he wouldn't leave his wife.
No, sir! Negative, it won't be me.
She got a house, a car and a night on the town every other week and a vacation here and there.
There she was; not so free we heard Maya Angelou say she knew "why the caged bird sings" she was now immulating a lost soul, still beautiful but slowly dying on the inside...
No, sir! It won't be me.
She's not as strong as she use to be, too many abortions to recount or recollect. Alone, because as a mistress she's lost her self respect. Playing 2nd fiddle and accepting what's given to her, never asking for what's owed to her.
No, sir! Negative, it won't be me.
Time waits for no one, woman/man - 30+ years have gone by but she stood by her man, even though he wasn't really hers; she was there whenever he needed her. She gave new meaning to the phrase "old faithful" he raised his family, she dreamed of what hers could've been.
No, sir! Negative, it won't be me.
Pretty Young Thang, beautiful as kept - now, she's an old maid standing at her doorstep waiting...
No, sir!
Negative.
It won't be me.
Bx 176
06.20.09 @12:52pm
No, sir!
Negative.
She was the prettiest thing walking, when they met - She was young & supple.
P.Y.T. = Pretty Young Thang! Yes, that was her.
He was an experienced man, had money, charm, established and he knew how to take care of a woman.
No, sir! Negative, it won't be me.
He sure did, so much so he felt the need for 2-3, even though he was married.
There she was; she was free as a bird but powerful like a stallion. She was the equivalent of a Grown 'lil girl, if ever there was such.
No, sir! Negative, it won't be me.
She fell in love, deeply, passionately in love.
She loved him, he adored her but he wouldn't leave his wife.
No, sir! Negative, it won't be me.
She got a house, a car and a night on the town every other week and a vacation here and there.
There she was; not so free we heard Maya Angelou say she knew "why the caged bird sings" she was now immulating a lost soul, still beautiful but slowly dying on the inside...
No, sir! It won't be me.
She's not as strong as she use to be, too many abortions to recount or recollect. Alone, because as a mistress she's lost her self respect. Playing 2nd fiddle and accepting what's given to her, never asking for what's owed to her.
No, sir! Negative, it won't be me.
Time waits for no one, woman/man - 30+ years have gone by but she stood by her man, even though he wasn't really hers; she was there whenever he needed her. She gave new meaning to the phrase "old faithful" he raised his family, she dreamed of what hers could've been.
No, sir! Negative, it won't be me.
Pretty Young Thang, beautiful as kept - now, she's an old maid standing at her doorstep waiting...
No, sir!
Negative.
It won't be me.
Bx 176
06.20.09 @12:52pm
Thursday, June 18, 2009
It's like I'm 5 all over, again
It's like I'm 5 all over, again.
It's hard dealing wth the pain. The only true intimacy I enjoy is emotional; the physical has always been an obstacle.
I use to think it was the fault of my partner but now that i've grown and left that relationship the problems still persists-terrifying pain as soon as he enters at times it's tolerable but at other times-I hide my face and think of other things, there's no hope.
It's like I'm 5 all over, again. Here he comes, mommy where are you? Don't leave me here! Please, don't go! Please. I can't remember everything but as clear as day I remember crying but of course back then no rational adult would think that someone especially their own relative would be preying on their child.
It affects the rest of your life no matter what you do, where you go its always there-fear, pain along with a permanent reaction to second guess and/or doubt yourself een when you know it's right. It's like I'm 5 all over, again.
I have yet to seek professional help on this...but the pain and scars are starting to run so deep that I no longer see a way out-it's like I'm 5 all over, again.
I want out!
Bx 176 06.18.09
::sent from my Treo Pro::
W: http://phatgyrl.blogspot.com
It's hard dealing wth the pain. The only true intimacy I enjoy is emotional; the physical has always been an obstacle.
I use to think it was the fault of my partner but now that i've grown and left that relationship the problems still persists-terrifying pain as soon as he enters at times it's tolerable but at other times-I hide my face and think of other things, there's no hope.
It's like I'm 5 all over, again. Here he comes, mommy where are you? Don't leave me here! Please, don't go! Please. I can't remember everything but as clear as day I remember crying but of course back then no rational adult would think that someone especially their own relative would be preying on their child.
It affects the rest of your life no matter what you do, where you go its always there-fear, pain along with a permanent reaction to second guess and/or doubt yourself een when you know it's right. It's like I'm 5 all over, again.
I have yet to seek professional help on this...but the pain and scars are starting to run so deep that I no longer see a way out-it's like I'm 5 all over, again.
I want out!
Bx 176 06.18.09
::sent from my Treo Pro::
W: http://phatgyrl.blogspot.com
They need a voice
They need a voice, one with power RESPECT
WE the people or are you just ONE of those people NEGATIVE
They need a voice, one with power RESPECT
Quien dice?
Who says? YOU
Who says? YOU
They need a voice, one with power RESPECT
AFFIRMATIVE action, how about starting with being PROACITVE
GREATNESS in NUMBERS
GREATNESS in NUMBERS
Buying power vs. Voting power
Who’s next?
They need a voice, one with power REQUEST POLICY because of our quantity
WE the people or AM I just ONE of those people
Who’s next?
They need a voice, one with power REQUEST POLICY because of our quantity
WE the people or AM I just ONE of those people
Viva la Raza LATINA en Total
NOne of our CHILDren LEFT Behind!!!
They need a voice ‘ONE with RESPECT
They need a voice ‘ONE with RESPECT
Dispel ALL NEGATIVES
YOU just be
I AM part of those people LATINOS, Greatness in NUMBERS
They know OUR BUYING power just what do you think will happen when we show them OUR VOTING power
WE the people will be requesting NEW POLICY
It’s our TURN no more: Who’s next?
WE NEED A VOICE
YOU just be
I AM part of those people LATINOS, Greatness in NUMBERS
They know OUR BUYING power just what do you think will happen when we show them OUR VOTING power
WE the people will be requesting NEW POLICY
It’s our TURN no more: Who’s next?
WE NEED A VOICE
Viva la Raza con PODER
Quien dice?
Who says?I’m NOT ONE of those PEOPLE
I am those people their voice one with power and respect; each of my milestones dispels the negatives.
Who says? I do! None of my children will be left behind; they need my voice our greatness is in numbers and I see all possibilities.
Bx176 4.17.08 at 9:41pm
From the Projects to Princeton, viva Sotomayor!!!
One.
Who says?I’m NOT ONE of those PEOPLE
I am those people their voice one with power and respect; each of my milestones dispels the negatives.
Who says? I do! None of my children will be left behind; they need my voice our greatness is in numbers and I see all possibilities.
Bx176 4.17.08 at 9:41pm
From the Projects to Princeton, viva Sotomayor!!!
One.
The Bullshyt-The Drama
The bullshyt!
The Drama!
I'm to comfortable and way too accepting of others imperfections-it has to be that or I'm just that damn stupid.
The bullshyt!
The Drama!
I sacrificed my needs for your wants how dumb of me-I finally phucked mysef! Not really a good feeling, this much I can tell you.
The Bullshyt!
The Drama!
How do I get myself into this nonsense-WTF?
Am I not worthy of true admiration and love, this can't be?!?!
The Bullshyt!
The Drama!
As a professional, I can make things work in my favor while still appeasing the needs/wants of my peers. It's baffling that I can't do the same for love.
The Bullshyt!
The Drama!
I just don't have time for it or you.
Bx 176
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W: http://phatgyrl.blogspot.com
The Drama!
I'm to comfortable and way too accepting of others imperfections-it has to be that or I'm just that damn stupid.
The bullshyt!
The Drama!
I sacrificed my needs for your wants how dumb of me-I finally phucked mysef! Not really a good feeling, this much I can tell you.
The Bullshyt!
The Drama!
How do I get myself into this nonsense-WTF?
Am I not worthy of true admiration and love, this can't be?!?!
The Bullshyt!
The Drama!
As a professional, I can make things work in my favor while still appeasing the needs/wants of my peers. It's baffling that I can't do the same for love.
The Bullshyt!
The Drama!
I just don't have time for it or you.
Bx 176
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W: http://phatgyrl.blogspot.com
Friday, June 5, 2009
I'm Sleepy
I'm sleepy, but not tired if there's even a difference - IDK & don't care! So, I'm up @ the scribes I GUESS I'm looking for my next big break or piece rather.
I'm trying - I really am but it's just not coming to me and I'm not feeling any kind of way - maybe, that's it I stopped feeling? Lord, I hope not! I like my feelings; they bring out my sparkling personality ;-) well, I do what I can lol.
I'm tired, life is strange the way it plays out-you just never know what to expect, except the unexpected <--- there's a play on words for you, lol.
I wish I could just write and each piece be picturesque and when one reads through it they see, feel and understand what I'm saying.
It is possible that this could be too far fetched but then again, I never thought I'd be writer.
BX 176
06.06.09 @ 1:09am
::sent from my Treo Pro::
W: http://phatgyrl.blogspot.com
I'm trying - I really am but it's just not coming to me and I'm not feeling any kind of way - maybe, that's it I stopped feeling? Lord, I hope not! I like my feelings; they bring out my sparkling personality ;-) well, I do what I can lol.
I'm tired, life is strange the way it plays out-you just never know what to expect, except the unexpected <--- there's a play on words for you, lol.
I wish I could just write and each piece be picturesque and when one reads through it they see, feel and understand what I'm saying.
It is possible that this could be too far fetched but then again, I never thought I'd be writer.
BX 176
06.06.09 @ 1:09am
::sent from my Treo Pro::
W: http://phatgyrl.blogspot.com
Saturday, May 30, 2009
A short story on Park Place...
Damn! That was good.
I was nervous at first.
Unsure.
As we got into it, I told myself I’ll just fake it.
He won’t notice.
Right!
We stop, pull up on the side of the road
What – What happened?
Take ‘em off!
What?!
Yo’ panties, take ‘em off
Oooh, I’m excited. Damn!
Aight, papi. They off, they off.
Hand up thigh, oooh its hot in here.
Before I could even think to help him out by opening up
I was already there
I can’t think straight
Breath girl, B-R-E-A-T-H!
Everything STOPS.
Chest heaving, deep breaths IN/OUT
He stopped.
Before I could look to see what happened.
His hand was stroking my hair
He whispers: I wanna watch
Huh?
Watch, what?
Go ahead, lemme see.
Pretend that’s my toungue
Hmm, I’ma fake this one – he won’t be able to tell and besides I been talking shit, so I can’t look like a punk.
Act like, I like this.
You like my toungue there?
Yea!
To myself, my hand is warm here.
What was that sound, sounds like a toungue liking
You like that
Hmm?
What does it feel like?
Warm. He’s got to be kidding
There goes that toungue sound again, but that’s my hand right?
Yea, its my hand.
Seat back- one leg up on the dash board the other follows.
I hear him faintly: You like to get your clit sucked
There goes that toungue noise again
But that’s my hand, but it feels so good
I like sucking on clits
There’s that sound..
God, its hot in here-Whew!
You like that? (That sound)
Yes.
You like it from the back? Yea, you look like you like to be bent over.
Heat rushing through my body.
Can I bend you over?
Yea.
Stroking my hair.
He’s talking, but I can’t hear him.
I’m somewhere else, in my own zone.
Its cold out, but I’m hot as fuck.
It must be getting good, I can hear your juices-I can smell you, and you taste good.
Whew, yes!
I didn’t think my clit could throb like that.
So, you think you gonna write about this?
What?
I’m up, I’m in my room but I was just…
Oh, I’m tripping.
I reach over to the other side for the remote to turn on the morning news.
I find my panties, instead.
12-21-04
BX 176
I was nervous at first.
Unsure.
As we got into it, I told myself I’ll just fake it.
He won’t notice.
Right!
We stop, pull up on the side of the road
What – What happened?
Take ‘em off!
What?!
Yo’ panties, take ‘em off
Oooh, I’m excited. Damn!
Aight, papi. They off, they off.
Hand up thigh, oooh its hot in here.
Before I could even think to help him out by opening up
I was already there
I can’t think straight
Breath girl, B-R-E-A-T-H!
Everything STOPS.
Chest heaving, deep breaths IN/OUT
He stopped.
Before I could look to see what happened.
His hand was stroking my hair
He whispers: I wanna watch
Huh?
Watch, what?
Go ahead, lemme see.
Pretend that’s my toungue
Hmm, I’ma fake this one – he won’t be able to tell and besides I been talking shit, so I can’t look like a punk.
Act like, I like this.
You like my toungue there?
Yea!
To myself, my hand is warm here.
What was that sound, sounds like a toungue liking
You like that
Hmm?
What does it feel like?
Warm. He’s got to be kidding
There goes that toungue sound again, but that’s my hand right?
Yea, its my hand.
Seat back- one leg up on the dash board the other follows.
I hear him faintly: You like to get your clit sucked
There goes that toungue noise again
But that’s my hand, but it feels so good
I like sucking on clits
There’s that sound..
God, its hot in here-Whew!
You like that? (That sound)
Yes.
You like it from the back? Yea, you look like you like to be bent over.
Heat rushing through my body.
Can I bend you over?
Yea.
Stroking my hair.
He’s talking, but I can’t hear him.
I’m somewhere else, in my own zone.
Its cold out, but I’m hot as fuck.
It must be getting good, I can hear your juices-I can smell you, and you taste good.
Whew, yes!
I didn’t think my clit could throb like that.
So, you think you gonna write about this?
What?
I’m up, I’m in my room but I was just…
Oh, I’m tripping.
I reach over to the other side for the remote to turn on the morning news.
I find my panties, instead.
12-21-04
BX 176
Sunday, May 10, 2009
What I Need
What I need
I need more time.
I need to be in my mans arms; where it's safe and warm.
I need to feel the weight of your body against mine.
I need there not to ever lapse time where I forget the sensation of your lips at the nape of my neck.
I need to be loved to the fullest extent, continuously.
I need there to never ever be any sexual frustration - Mami, always said whatever you don't do, somebody else will. So, I make sure that I DO it all for you.
I need to know that its okay for me to creatively express my thoughts without sounding alarms.
I need to be cared for deeply and ernestly with no regard as to who's watching.
I need to love and be loved, I'm ready for love and all of its flaws.
All I WANT is YOU
What I NEED is YOU
Bx176
05.10.09
1:21pm
Saturday, May 2, 2009
In my Lifetime
In my lifetime
I’ve seen quite a bit
In my lifetime
I’ve experienced doubt
In my lifetime
I’ve been dealt an abundance of pain
In my lifetime
I’ve seen some atrocities
In my lifetime
I’ve experienced TRUE love and some passionate hate
In my lifetime
I’ve been around some bullshyt
In my lifetime
I’m just not sure if I’ll make it through.
Bx176
05.01.09
3:03pm
I’ve seen quite a bit
In my lifetime
I’ve experienced doubt
In my lifetime
I’ve been dealt an abundance of pain
In my lifetime
I’ve seen some atrocities
In my lifetime
I’ve experienced TRUE love and some passionate hate
In my lifetime
I’ve been around some bullshyt
In my lifetime
I’m just not sure if I’ll make it through.
Bx176
05.01.09
3:03pm
Thursday, April 30, 2009
I keep asking myself
I keep asking myself, Why or how could I let this be?
I fell in love, a deep love almost like an oasis of love not blissful ignorant love but strong; deeply connected love.
I keep asking myself, how or why did I let this be?
No straight answer from him or me, I'm in a safe zone.
We ran across the highway of love so rapidly, we never saw, I never saw it coming.
It was deep; our love-there's no explanation for it-it's just who we are simple yet complex.
The good is just enough and the badder the better!
Still, I keep asking myself how or why did I let this be?
Faithfully & Eternally, I will always love him-but he's not mine for the taking but when our bodies combine - it's chaotic passion and if you've never had it, go on and try it-it'll soothe all woes.
There's balance:
Love-Hate
Hot-Cold
Love-Lust
Trust-Deceit
There's no rhyme or reason-it's raw feeling; TRUE emotion.
I keep asking myself, how or why could I let this be?
I thought closely, without me there is no him.
Bx 176
I fell in love, a deep love almost like an oasis of love not blissful ignorant love but strong; deeply connected love.
I keep asking myself, how or why did I let this be?
No straight answer from him or me, I'm in a safe zone.
We ran across the highway of love so rapidly, we never saw, I never saw it coming.
It was deep; our love-there's no explanation for it-it's just who we are simple yet complex.
The good is just enough and the badder the better!
Still, I keep asking myself how or why did I let this be?
Faithfully & Eternally, I will always love him-but he's not mine for the taking but when our bodies combine - it's chaotic passion and if you've never had it, go on and try it-it'll soothe all woes.
There's balance:
Love-Hate
Hot-Cold
Love-Lust
Trust-Deceit
There's no rhyme or reason-it's raw feeling; TRUE emotion.
I keep asking myself, how or why could I let this be?
I thought closely, without me there is no him.
Bx 176
Not Your Average
I'm not an average bitch, I'm a quality bitch!
Fuck that, I'm a Limited Edition and fuck you very much with your bitch assness!!!
Please don't come this way, I'm on my way to places that you'll never see.
Get on with your foolish banter, I don't care to understand.
I'm not an average bitch, I'm a quality bitch as rare as the stones int he crown of the Pharoah's.
Get on with the victomology, I'm tired of your "I'm Sorry!"
You're such a fucking lame.
You got me only to take a crack at me, I'm not a part-time woman.
I'm a complete woman in search of her complete man, so tell me have you seen him?
I'm not an average bitch, I'm a quality bitch!
I'm not in need of material possessions because I understand my worth and am capable of
complementing your swag.
I do more than bring something to the table, I light that motherfucker on fire!
And, one day you'll realize how wonderful we could've been.
I'm so sorry, I know-it sucks to be you.
Bx 176
04.18.09
11:09pm
Fuck that, I'm a Limited Edition and fuck you very much with your bitch assness!!!
Please don't come this way, I'm on my way to places that you'll never see.
Get on with your foolish banter, I don't care to understand.
I'm not an average bitch, I'm a quality bitch as rare as the stones int he crown of the Pharoah's.
Get on with the victomology, I'm tired of your "I'm Sorry!"
You're such a fucking lame.
You got me only to take a crack at me, I'm not a part-time woman.
I'm a complete woman in search of her complete man, so tell me have you seen him?
I'm not an average bitch, I'm a quality bitch!
I'm not in need of material possessions because I understand my worth and am capable of
complementing your swag.
I do more than bring something to the table, I light that motherfucker on fire!
And, one day you'll realize how wonderful we could've been.
I'm so sorry, I know-it sucks to be you.
Bx 176
04.18.09
11:09pm
I'm in Love
I'm in love, so in love or at least I thought I was...
I don't know what happened to me/us?
But, now I'm here alone and torn between two loves
I love him, I love him but he never loved me back or at least not how I wanted him to.
I'm so in love or at least I use to be.
I'm not sure what happened to or it went wrong but I'm here alone, torn love.
I love him
I loved him, but he wasn't ready and now he says "I'm ready!"
I love you.
I've waiting to hear him say that of his own accord.
He beams so brightly when he sees me.
He openly says I miss you, I really do.
I had so much fun with him but he hurt me.
I can't put myself out here, again not to him.
I love him.
I use to love him.
So, why do I still miss him?
Bx176
1:46am
I don't know what happened to me/us?
But, now I'm here alone and torn between two loves
I love him, I love him but he never loved me back or at least not how I wanted him to.
I'm so in love or at least I use to be.
I'm not sure what happened to or it went wrong but I'm here alone, torn love.
I love him
I loved him, but he wasn't ready and now he says "I'm ready!"
I love you.
I've waiting to hear him say that of his own accord.
He beams so brightly when he sees me.
He openly says I miss you, I really do.
I had so much fun with him but he hurt me.
I can't put myself out here, again not to him.
I love him.
I use to love him.
So, why do I still miss him?
Bx176
1:46am
Monday, April 20, 2009
What WE Do
What we do, How we do be on that next shyt!
That kind you dream of sexin'
Passionate
Lustful
So sinful, you'd think we consulted with the Devil.
What we do, how we do be on that next shyt!
That kind you fin for sexin'!
Just the thought of it gives you shivers
The kind that when you're done, all you can muster is "I'm good"
What we do, how we do be on that next shyt!
That you can come get it anytime, anywhere you want it Daddy sexin'!
The nastier the better...
What we do, how we do be on that next shyt!
That's his shyt, Pussy Pumper extrodinaire-Special Delivery!!
What we do, how we do be on that next shyt!
I'm so in love with 'em
Shyt!
Bx176
02.09.09
9:29
That kind you dream of sexin'
Passionate
Lustful
So sinful, you'd think we consulted with the Devil.
What we do, how we do be on that next shyt!
That kind you fin for sexin'!
Just the thought of it gives you shivers
The kind that when you're done, all you can muster is "I'm good"
What we do, how we do be on that next shyt!
That you can come get it anytime, anywhere you want it Daddy sexin'!
The nastier the better...
What we do, how we do be on that next shyt!
That's his shyt, Pussy Pumper extrodinaire-Special Delivery!!
What we do, how we do be on that next shyt!
I'm so in love with 'em
Shyt!
Bx176
02.09.09
9:29
I'm in distress, needs have not been met!
S.O.S. MuthaPhuka
Mz.Stress in distress...if you can't keep up with her, do you really need to be with her?
Mz.Stress in distress, who just happens to be depressed. Phuck!
A lone star state of affairs.
Damn, it's phucked up when a bitch could love so good but still be alone.
Mz.Stress in distress!
S.O.S. MuthaPhuka, ova' here!
I'm starting to analyze...
Am I really worth the time or is it just not my time at all?
Ha ha!
Take a deep breath ::BREATH::
Mz.Stress in distress, is worth the stress?
Yes!
His love is better than all the rest.
Bx 176
01.30.09
5:44pm
S.O.S. MuthaPhuka
Mz.Stress in distress...if you can't keep up with her, do you really need to be with her?
Mz.Stress in distress, who just happens to be depressed. Phuck!
A lone star state of affairs.
Damn, it's phucked up when a bitch could love so good but still be alone.
Mz.Stress in distress!
S.O.S. MuthaPhuka, ova' here!
I'm starting to analyze...
Am I really worth the time or is it just not my time at all?
Ha ha!
Take a deep breath ::BREATH::
Mz.Stress in distress, is worth the stress?
Yes!
His love is better than all the rest.
Bx 176
01.30.09
5:44pm
Sunday, April 19, 2009
I almost told him about you
I almost told him about you, today
How you make me smile so wildly, I have to remind myself to keep my composure.
I almost told him about you, today
How you make me feel like a woman, a sexy one at that
I almost told him about you, today
How you make my body yearn for your touch, day in and day out
I almost told him about you, last night
How you love to show me off, and appreciate my appearance during our outings
I almost told him about you, last night
When he asked me, have you cheated on me?
I wanted to say: Yes, I did but what I did say: No. I'd much rather leave than deal with those issues.
I almost told him about you, again.I feel like I'm losing control, emotionally torn and mentally distraught
Loyalty holds me, but the thought of LOVE uncontrolled puts fear in me.
But still, I almost told him about you.
Bx 176
04.12.05
How you make me smile so wildly, I have to remind myself to keep my composure.
I almost told him about you, today
How you make me feel like a woman, a sexy one at that
I almost told him about you, today
How you make my body yearn for your touch, day in and day out
I almost told him about you, last night
How you love to show me off, and appreciate my appearance during our outings
I almost told him about you, last night
When he asked me, have you cheated on me?
I wanted to say: Yes, I did but what I did say: No. I'd much rather leave than deal with those issues.
I almost told him about you, again.I feel like I'm losing control, emotionally torn and mentally distraught
Loyalty holds me, but the thought of LOVE uncontrolled puts fear in me.
But still, I almost told him about you.
Bx 176
04.12.05
Perception (Young & Restless)
I'm young but I'm not stupid; I understand the difference between right and wrong.
I know good and I know BAD, been there done that!
Perception is a damn good seductress; she can convince a blind man that he can see. It's true, I've seen her in action. I'm young but I'm not stupid; I understand the smart, the overly smart, the too smart and those that are dumb as a brick. I understand and battle with moral and immoral actions, daily.
Perception is a damn good seductress; she can make light in the darkIt's true, this chick is bad!
I'm young but I'm not stupid; I understand everything isn't for everybody especially my everything.I know honest and dishonest, I hear from them daily.
Perception is a damn good seductress; she makes the miniscule seem larger than life when it shouldn't be. It's true, I'm sure you've been through it I'm young but I'm not stupid; I understand decency, self respect and overall good character.I know fact from fictionPerception is a damn good seductress; she makes everything surrealIt's true.
I'm young, but I'm not stupid and I make sure that I sieze the day-to thy own self be true!
BX 176
10.19.08
7:55pm
I know good and I know BAD, been there done that!
Perception is a damn good seductress; she can convince a blind man that he can see. It's true, I've seen her in action. I'm young but I'm not stupid; I understand the smart, the overly smart, the too smart and those that are dumb as a brick. I understand and battle with moral and immoral actions, daily.
Perception is a damn good seductress; she can make light in the darkIt's true, this chick is bad!
I'm young but I'm not stupid; I understand everything isn't for everybody especially my everything.I know honest and dishonest, I hear from them daily.
Perception is a damn good seductress; she makes the miniscule seem larger than life when it shouldn't be. It's true, I'm sure you've been through it I'm young but I'm not stupid; I understand decency, self respect and overall good character.I know fact from fictionPerception is a damn good seductress; she makes everything surrealIt's true.
I'm young, but I'm not stupid and I make sure that I sieze the day-to thy own self be true!
BX 176
10.19.08
7:55pm
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Why Ask?
Why Ask?
I don't understand, why ask to bemy everything forever and a day-then slowly take it away?
Why? What's the point, exactly?
Why ask me to be with you ride or die, then inch away like a coward under stress?
I don't understand.
Why? What would incite you to romance and invest in the mental connection that we had and then abrubtly, stop!
Why ask for clarification "are we a couple, BF/GF, etc.?" You responded "Yes" a number of times then we done, cause you say we done; now granted, you never said but your actions do daily.
Why ask? What's the purpose? Was it in all actuality just a creep?
Maybe, but I'd hate to think that was it-especially because of the way you look at me when you say- you love me.
Maybe, as I'm thinking on it - you did just completed your quest. Afterall, you did say - you just wanted to see how was, as a person.
I hope it's what you expected, but still I don't understand, why you asked.
Bx176
04.05.09 2:36am
I don't understand, why ask to bemy everything forever and a day-then slowly take it away?
Why? What's the point, exactly?
Why ask me to be with you ride or die, then inch away like a coward under stress?
I don't understand.
Why? What would incite you to romance and invest in the mental connection that we had and then abrubtly, stop!
Why ask for clarification "are we a couple, BF/GF, etc.?" You responded "Yes" a number of times then we done, cause you say we done; now granted, you never said but your actions do daily.
Why ask? What's the purpose? Was it in all actuality just a creep?
Maybe, but I'd hate to think that was it-especially because of the way you look at me when you say- you love me.
Maybe, as I'm thinking on it - you did just completed your quest. Afterall, you did say - you just wanted to see how was, as a person.
I hope it's what you expected, but still I don't understand, why you asked.
Bx176
04.05.09 2:36am
Friday, April 3, 2009
You got this thing with me You love me - You can't love me
You want me - You don't want me but you need me
You got this thing with me You'll love me like you adore me but then it turns around and I wonder, does he hate me?
You got time and make time then *poof* it's gone!
You got this thing with me I love you, I gotta love you - I adore you but you're bruising me without ever laying a hand on me.
You got this thing with me You provide, protect and pamper when you can all because you love me
You want me
You need me
I hear you baby, keep talking
You got this thing with me
It's killing me!
Bx176 02.06.09 7:06pm
You want me - You don't want me but you need me
You got this thing with me You'll love me like you adore me but then it turns around and I wonder, does he hate me?
You got time and make time then *poof* it's gone!
You got this thing with me I love you, I gotta love you - I adore you but you're bruising me without ever laying a hand on me.
You got this thing with me You provide, protect and pamper when you can all because you love me
You want me
You need me
I hear you baby, keep talking
You got this thing with me
It's killing me!
Bx176 02.06.09 7:06pm
I believe in love first
I believe in love, first
How you got ‘em is how you lose ‘em?
Old saying…I don’t believe in
I believe in love first
REAL LOVE
No bullshyt infatuation
I can see you broke down to your socks and still ride or die
I believe in love first
How you got ‘em is how you lost ‘em?
Not if you have their heart!
REAL Love endures all things
I believe in love first and I swear by his
It’s worth every moment, kiss, touch and stare
REAL LOVE knows no bounds and can’t be contested
How you got ‘em is how you lose ‘em?
Nah!
I believe in love first
Novelty is temporary
Lust soon fades
Infatuation quickly dies and sometimes you have to remember how you got ‘em is how you keep ‘em!
I believe in love first
BX176
1.26-28.09, 10:49pm
How you got ‘em is how you lose ‘em?
Old saying…I don’t believe in
I believe in love first
REAL LOVE
No bullshyt infatuation
I can see you broke down to your socks and still ride or die
I believe in love first
How you got ‘em is how you lost ‘em?
Not if you have their heart!
REAL Love endures all things
I believe in love first and I swear by his
It’s worth every moment, kiss, touch and stare
REAL LOVE knows no bounds and can’t be contested
How you got ‘em is how you lose ‘em?
Nah!
I believe in love first
Novelty is temporary
Lust soon fades
Infatuation quickly dies and sometimes you have to remember how you got ‘em is how you keep ‘em!
I believe in love first
BX176
1.26-28.09, 10:49pm
Monday, March 30, 2009
lend me your ears (eyes)
aight, this is an informal but formal declaration of frustration. i am a very direct person, therefore i require those in my circle (inner, outer and surrounding) to be of the same suit or damn near close-i practice this to avoid frustration and unecessary piss-poor communication.when entering relationship, please PLEASE PAY ATTENTION to what's being said in the initial stages they set the tone for the rest of the relationship (if it gets that far) key question people should ask; what type of relationship are you looking for?
a. friends w/benefits
b. bootycall
c. sexually exclusive
d. boyfriend/girlfriend (this includes all emotions; good, bad and ugly)
e. the latest relationship w/o a title but similar to bf/gf just not outright saying it
if as a cohesive unit you can't agree on any or one of the above, save the drama for your mama if you know you are looking for a SPECIFIC ONE of these relationships dont settle if you BOTH AGREE on D, then damn it understand that it's a two-way street, you give and you get and by all means don't enter it full force then stop abruptly or switch the game up, that's wack!
COMMUNICATION is the key to everything and before anyone starts on their respective soapboxes :-D personally, i am clear of my expectations in every relationship and i do follow-ups and inbetween checks, i made one mistake and it's not gonna happen again. im done!
holla
a. friends w/benefits
b. bootycall
c. sexually exclusive
d. boyfriend/girlfriend (this includes all emotions; good, bad and ugly)
e. the latest relationship w/o a title but similar to bf/gf just not outright saying it
if as a cohesive unit you can't agree on any or one of the above, save the drama for your mama if you know you are looking for a SPECIFIC ONE of these relationships dont settle if you BOTH AGREE on D, then damn it understand that it's a two-way street, you give and you get and by all means don't enter it full force then stop abruptly or switch the game up, that's wack!
COMMUNICATION is the key to everything and before anyone starts on their respective soapboxes :-D personally, i am clear of my expectations in every relationship and i do follow-ups and inbetween checks, i made one mistake and it's not gonna happen again. im done!
holla
Sunday, March 29, 2009
AS Step Show - Dunbar HS
It wasn't my best, that NY in me gets too amped sometimes but luckily someone caught it on tape so I'll really get to see where I can improve. I enjoyed the audience, they didn't BOO. I got asked to perform at another event and I met some cool people.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Debut
I decided to make my poetry public, officially! I'm writing a book "PhatGyrlzRule" coming soon...
My debut performance will be at Station9 the @ttic courtesy of BenyBlaq Entertainment, in the DMV area. I'm new to the poetry scene and this place just felt like a good spot to start. Hopefully, I'll make a good impression :-)
My debut performance will be at Station9 the @ttic courtesy of BenyBlaq Entertainment, in the DMV area. I'm new to the poetry scene and this place just felt like a good spot to start. Hopefully, I'll make a good impression :-)
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